2002-04-11 - ?:?? PM

I wish I were that last second before total collapse is realized and total panic is necissary. I want to drink chaos, disorder, and confusion from a tin cup, and lick my lips after, to catch every drop. I want to watch somebody's life tilt, turn, and spontaneously combust. I want to be the initiating moment which caused this to happen. I wish more people questioned their faiths or their philosophies, just so I can watch their process of mind-boggling contemplation, frustration, mental collapse, and, eventually, regrowth, because this is one of the most beautiful things in the world.