2004-12-25 - 7:43 p.m.

I feel radioactive, everything I touched becoming charged with a tangible energy. The descent gave way to a mere decline, which reversed as I began making the best of things, and now my life is on the up and up once again -- but bogged down slightly with profound confusion. Friends and drinks and breakfast at four on Christmas morning; five drunk people assembling eggs and hashbrowns and bacon and sausage in one crowded kitchen, laughing and turning life around onto its best side, has to be the highlight of my whole life so far. This is life in fast forward.